31/1/11

现在已经是31/1/11 了~~
一个月又将过去了~~
很快的~~
在这个月内，发生的事情还真的是出乎我预料`~~
就连原本没想要做的事情也做了~~

在今天~~
我想了很久...
这一年的一月，我是怎样过的？？

当我回想时...
才发现，
我的18岁生活怎么那么的无趣？
当初我的计划现在一样都没实现~~
好无奈~~
好失败~~

但，我又可以怎样呢？？

时间已经随着地球的转动流逝了~~
我不可以再回到当初的我~~

人总要变~~
但是，在于变好变坏~
在于变成熟还是比以前来得更幼稚~~

而我，我觉得我的却是有变到~~
但是却不知道自己变了什么~~

有可能变得：
不再爱说话，
不再爱疯疯癫癫~~

有可能变得：
冷酷，
成熟~~


但是，却没什么人能发现~~
哈哈~~
这是正常的~~

哈哈....


人吗~~
总是要成长~~
只是，我比任何人还来得快成长~~

崩溃

每天都是很累，不只因为工作，内心的疼痛更让我疲惫，总是喜欢怀念....

是因为我正在老去吗？

还是现在的生活快让我崩溃？

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今天....

不知道是怎么了？

一副憔悴的样子....

是昨晚睡不够？

是因为工作太累？

还是因为太过的想你？

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不知道....

咳...

应该是累了~~

无言~~

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接受了关系...

接受了当初我为了其他而一时冲动所发出的要求~~

但我现在有点觉得，其实.....

我是不是太冲动？？

是不是过分？？

是不是太任性？？

现在反而觉得，单身其实满不错~~

是对象不对？

还是单身真的比恋爱来得好？？

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请问有人清楚明白我在想什么吗？？

可以告诉我吗？？

因为我...

我....

我自己都不知道自己要的是什么！！

想 · 没想

我没有很想你，真的没有。

我只是在走到某个路口的时候才会想起你....
我只是听歌听到一半的时候才会想起你....

我真的没有很想你，

我只是在我不想想你的时候想起你....

我没有很想你...

至少我没有想你想到发疯....

我只是想你到眼睛湿润....

我想睡觉....
但是睡不着/....
我没有很想你....

只是在睡不着的时候想你....
只是我不知道是睡不着想你，还是想你睡不着....
在客厅上看着无聊的杂志，翻书的时候想起了你....
在床上打滚的时候想起你....
我睡不着，我摇头要赶走你的影子，可是它印在了杂志上....
所以我把杂志扔掉，关上灯....
你的样子在黑暗中是那么的明晰，所以我又把灯打开....

我不要很想你....
我的逻辑没有那么数学化，介入你的视线，不介入你的择...

我没有很想你....

即使想你....

也不是我想你的程度....

因为在时间面前，我们什么都没有留下.....

 

时间这样用来浪费....

我不心疼....

不想你的时候它们也是变的一片空白....

想你的时候我快乐....

不想你的时候我寂寞....

我想快乐多一点会比较好....

我没有很想你...
我只是在我高兴的时候想起你，在我不高兴的时候想起你。

相信，给我回忆的人不会被回忆欺骗，回忆里的人才会被它欺骗....

你笑了....   我的天晴了....

你沉默了...   我的心灰了....

我收集你的所有短信，衡量你是否还如以前一般卷恋？

你知道我在做些无聊而有趣的事情....

穿着空荡的睡衣光脚在屋子里一一细数你留下的痕迹

我没有很想你....
就算我想你，但只是想你而不打扰你.....
这杯为爱而酿的甘醇，自斟自饮，感受到了那份为爱而生的痛....

我不想想你，但是思念是那样的不可抑制，是一种痛彻心肺的伤....

就让无限的深情，在这字里行间尽情的挥洒....

让这因思念而生的伤感渐渐的成为人生历程中最美的风景/...

欣

clean again 23/1/11

who is this ??

haha ...

fuyoh yoh ...

is me is me ...

cute ??

yes /...

i m cute ...

haha

fuyoh ...

today i so good girl. ..

y ??

because...

i today no go out ...

and somemore ...

i very hardwork ...

i plan to clean my cupboard ..

so ..

i start my work at 4pm ...

haha ...

a bit late la ...

when i clean my cupboard ..

i saw some interest things ...

haha ...

let's see ...

this ....

haha ...

襟花~~

when i saw this ..

i teringat my partner ... xuanyi ...

haha ...

this pula ..

is my 2009 diary ...

haha ..

now i open and read ...

haha ..

really so funny ...

wakaka ..

this is sounvenir ...

wat is this ...

haha ...

singapore kaki ...

haha ...

manying bring for me from singapore 1 ..

this pula is pangkor slipper ...

haha ...

1 kaki ...

1 slipper ...

so match ..

this is kunhui bring for me from pangkor trip ...

this ..

haha ...

curi geh ..

this is curi from ikea ...

last time i date out with my family ...

and preston family ...

this is we steal from there ...

actually tak kira is curi ...

cos we 光明正大拿的~~

wakakaka...

this is my prize ...

haha ...

hw i get this present ??

haha ...

is because i answer 2 question from onefm suki on prom night ...

1. which class lau vincent at school ??
2. what vincent's measurement ?

yes ...

i m answer correct ...

then i get a present ...

haha ...

bell's work ...

this is ticket for ice skating at sunway piramid ...

hahha ...

is a good experience for me ...

cos i my first time to play ice skating ...

wakka ..

this pula is last year date out with primary classmate ...

we go watch movie ...------TOY STORY 3 ...

nice movie ...

the second time i watch cartoon movie ...

this is a gift ...

from kingston ..

haha ...

y i get it ??

it is because of ..

last years ...

1 of the pc fair ...

i buy thumbdrive ..

then i get it ..

wau ...

my st.john /.//

opps ///

nt mine anymore ...

miss ...

but i dun think i wanna to back to see them anymore ...

mo ngan tie ...

haha ...

sorry ....

this ...

haha ...

2009 ...

leadership camp ...

my group name ...钦安门

and this is my card ...

this pula is when i still young and small ...

dunno wat thing happen .

and wat reason ...

bell giv me de ...

i still keep it until nw...

i so setia ...

this...

haha...

u all jus can c the main page ..

if can saw inside content ...

then u will feel so funny ...

wakaka ...

this ...

macam ...

1 chop ...

this is caffe mao ...

wakaka...

cute cute ...

this is when i was form4...

me ...

ruby ...

leong ...

and heng kit ,..

we are going to sing k ...

that is the first time we 4 go out ..

wakaka

this is my birthday present ...

but i ady forget who giv me ady ...

sorry ...

pls forgive me ...

haha ...

hahha ...

儿歌~~

this all is my kaset ...

this i think is '08 birthday present ba ...

if no wrong is from niki ...

some photo and sweet ...

haha ...

nw i only realizse that i still keep ...

nw i see /..

so nice ...

this pula is my standard 6 birthday picture ...

haha ...

wif my mama and baba ...

so cute ...

i mean me la ...

hahaha..

star ...

i like it ...

leng leng ...

this is standard 6 pass ...

this pass is for go out class ...or go to toilet ...

as a touch and go ...

haha...

this is cadet police mp gift ...

damn nice ...

this is my form 3 birthday present...

form lavinne,xinchi, and bell ...

i like it ...

so nice. ..and beautifu lll ...<3

this is my work today ...

haha ...

date out 22/1/2011

hello ...

celynn huisin here ...

haha ///

wuhaa ..

today ..

no need so early go work ..

cos i ady finish my work on weekday ..

haha

i m a hardship gal ...

so yesterday ..

i decide to go to work at 12.30 ...

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but ...before i go work ...

i so perasaan ..

take some photo ..

wakaka ...

haha ...new pic

new pic ///

wakkaka ...

after that ...

i go there ...

for ...

clean so dirty d class room ...

f4 student so naughty ...

always dunwan to throw their drink and sugar paper into dustbin ...

so ..

my work is to clean and clean and clean ..

tired tired ..

after that ...

1.30 ..

indian class start ...

indian class start that mean i need to photostate and photostate and photostate ...

hate la ..

so hot ..

tik tok tik tok ...

time is gone  ...

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is time to back home ..

but ...

my plan is to go to berjaya times square for shopping ..

haha ...

ruby is waiting me ...

haha...

i reach there almost 5pm ...

then we are going to kimgary ...

haha ...

nice place ..

nice food ...

nice mango juice ...

nice service ...

but the important is ...

NICE price ...

hahah ...

haha ...

we jus order 2 mee sup ...

and 1 cup of mango juice ...

ady spent 27.++

so NICE la ...

after eat ..

then we go to shop shop shop ..

but we jus shop a while ...

then someone is meminta saya go lowyat ...

haha ...

then ...

we jus simple walk at here walk at there on floor 3 ...

so 38 ...

haha ...

the reason is because ...XXX

someone ??

haha ...

nevermind lo ...

i can wait ...

haha ...

after that we are going to sg.wang ...

for buy jeans ...

so cheap and nice ...hahah ...

jus 25 ...

and somemore i also buy a clothes ...

damn nice ...

i like it ...

but after back home ...

i try that clothes ..

is too big for me ...

haha ...

izit i m too small ??

or jus the clothes big ??

hahah ...

hope is me too small ...

wakakaka ...

then ...

we are decide to going back because ady so late ...

that all for today ...

wakak ..

nitex ...

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i never give up until now ...

<3

exhaust + funny

wakakaka...
today i so happy because i can back at 7pm ...
but ...
when i reach tuition centre ..
i answer a call ..
that call is from mr.lum --- my boss
he tell me a news ..
that ,,
mr.ganesh --- bm teacher was sprain ...
then he is nt attend today class ..'
so ok lo ..
then i lagi happy ...
cos i was nothing to do at there ...
but ..
a few minute ago ..
i answer a call from mr.lum again ...
he say tonight i need go sri pagi --- at setapak jaya thr for help ..
then i say ok lo ..
because it is my job mah ...
then i 无所事事 at setia whole day ..
oh my god ..
dAMn bored ...
o ...gt .. i gt do somethign ...
that is check attendence ..
and write down who havent pay fee ..
check until my eye so tired ..

i wait until 6pm ...i go down for buy my dinner ...
btw .,,
i was going to toilet and capture some photo ..
wakaka ...
and tonight my diner is super super delicious d maggi mee ..
i love it ..
haha ...
my first maggi mee '11
haha ...
yummy ,..
after that ...
i clean all the class room and wait for mr.lum to fetch me go sri pagi ...
i tot pagi thr de student almost same with setia student ...
but ..
when i reach thr ...
i aware that i m wrong ..
u knw y ??
thr de form2 student is hypo active ...
form3 student is hypo noise ..
when i in f3 class ...
i macam a stupid girl ... jus stand thr ...
thr more garang than me ..

but ...
when at f2 class ..
all student is friendly and nice ...
i love them so much ..
some of them can chat with me ..
and talk with me like i m their friend ...


although a few of them is naughty ..
but finally they also listen to me to finish their work ,,
haha ...
satisfy ...
haha ...
somore ...
they also say goodbye to me b4 they back ... love them ..
1 of them de little sister ..
was so cute ...
she treat me a cola sweet ..
thank you ...
haha ...


today although i m so tired ..
exhAUst ..
but i very enjoy it at pagi ..
hope next time can go again ..
but i jus wan go for f2 class ...
f3 ..
ahaha ...
no need la ..

i cannot accept lo ...

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today ///
haiz ..
can i say i was very very very XXX ??
dissapointed ...
haiz ...
mummy !!
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ytd ...
today ...
wat can i say ??
haiz ...
jus 1 word NO !!
wat the fuck ~~
stup[id ..
k ...
nw i give up ...
r u satisfy ??

hi ...

hi ...
today i off early ...
so can update my blog again ...
hahaha ...
jus nw help mum take rubbish to throw ...
when i back home ...
i close my umbrella /.//
when i close it ...
my hand is scratch ...
nw is so pain !!!
T^T

today sister is not at home ..
i play pc at room alone ...
the feel is quite good ..
hahaha ...

upgrade

this is a day that i first time lock my blog ...
wanna to upgrade ...
wait and c a new blog ...

♥ 数到五 ♥ 答应我 ♥

第一次看着你 就为你心动 ♥
聪明的我 怎能让你走 ♥

第二次看见你 我竟然失控 ♥

是我的错 请你原谅我 ♥

  第三次看见你 想要告诉你 ♥

 我是真的喜欢你 是真的喜欢你 ♥

第四次看着你 我有些要求 ♥

请你能够 安安静静的聆听 ♥

一.请你保护我 ♥
二.请你照顾我 ♥
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏 ♥
四.接受这命运 ♥
五.永远不分离 ♥

说你愿意 ♥

那最后一个一定要说你愿意 ♥

Want be your lover want be your man ♥

我只希望给你多一点 ♥

Can you be my lover don"t wanna be your friend ♥

给你幸福每一天 ♥

simple update =)

finally ...

i can update my blog ...

hahah ...

this few day , i m so busy on my work ..

no time to touch my computer ..

now finally ..

wush ..

can on ady ...

yippeee =]

actually yesterday i wanted to update ...

but yesterday i 11pm only reach home..

haha ..

already so tired then today only update luuuuuuuuuu.............

school reopen already ...

i wont be so free anymore ...

everyday is very busy ...

busy to received register form ...

busy to clean all the classroom ...

busy to check the marker pen ink ...

busy to help teacher photostate ..

busy to received fee ...

busy to open resit ...

busy to explain package to parent ...

busy to answer phone ...

busy to record and failing ...

oh my god ...

actually ...

the time is nt enuf for me ...

therefore i take many things back to do at home ...

after update my lover --- blog ...i wanted to continue my work ...

=(

my ns friend ... miss u all so much ..

can u all faster come back to kl ...

miss u ...

<3

<3

what is this ?? stupid XI

aiyo ...

今天心很乱哦~~

五点多就起床了~~

冲了凉，多一下子...

bbcai就来在了~~

然后就去载toh ....

然后就往zetro去~~

然后，搞笑的事....

那个士机！！

不懂会不会驾车，竟然插胃...

然后那个保安问：sabah or sarawak ??

那个苯士记说：boleh tak saya pergi hantar kawan saya ...

废到屁...

哈哈哈~~

然后就在那边等咯~~

等一位懒睡的人来~~

哈哈haha1

送了他~~

我们就去吃早餐~~

哈哈哈~~

吃完早餐，我们就去送第二轮~~

这次真的感觉不对~~

很舍不得~~

舍不得昆辉的驾车技术~~

舍不得伟荣的开玩笑声~~

舍不得美琪的随传随到~~

舍不得佳佩这老朋友~~

舍不得*1234 ~~

啊！！

我不能没有昆辉，那么我要去哪都不能了~~

虽然驾车技术不是很好~~

但是我已经习惯了~~

想你~~

我不能没有伟荣~~

虽然他常常大大声的凶我~~

但是我也已经习惯了~~

想你~~

我不能没有美琪~~

我已经习惯她陪伴我逛街了~~

我已经习惯她陪伴我k 歌了~~

我已经习惯她的随传随到~~

想你~~

我更不能没有佳佩这位老朋友~~

从小到大我们都不曾分离那么久~~

现在竟然要三个月~~

我的妈啊~~

想你啊~~

明明就是说好了....

明明就是没那种心...

但是今天却有点舍不得~~

看到你，我就感到很不好意思~~

看到你，我就想到昨天的事~~

虽然没那种XX 但是我还是有一种莫名其妙的不舍~~

咳~~

当时我在想，如果换成*1119，我会更不舍吧~~

侥幸*1119没去~

=）

然后，送了他们，我们就去吃冰~~

因为真的很热哦~~

之后，我们都当了电灯泡~~hahaha~~

不过，rui应该不会介意吧~~

哈哈~~

之后就去再一次的去k歌~~

爽~~

下次再去~~

但是下次要去neway...

superstar 不好唱~~

=）

Miss U  <3 <3 <3

clean clean clean ...

today i no working ...
then i sleep until 11.30 ...
then i jus brush teeth and wash face ...
then going to clean my rubbish room ...
hahah ...
some photo can identify my room really is rubbish ...

between thAT i find out mine 1st spectacle ...

hahah ...so kolot !!
wakaka ...


and i also find out my present from my mother when i still young ...

my gameboy ...
hahah ...
nw spoilt ady ..

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and i also find out my last year present ...

hAHAHA ...
xinchi and kokyong ~~
hahah ,,,
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after that i going out to wangsa walk wit fren ...
we go bowling ..
we go sing k ,...
wow ..
happy happy ...

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my fren ... u are going to NS lo ...
take care oo ...
we meet and dating after u coming back ...